Happy new month everyone!!
Oh, wait, should I be saying happy new year? Just realised I haven't been here in a while. I really miss blogging, sigh!!! We get so busy sometimes doing nothing and everything, we forget the simple things that make us happy, keep us sane and at peace. Well, onwards forward. I start my redeeming posts today.
So where was I? Oh yeah, happy new month! Two months down already? that fast? This year has an agenda, hehe. Only, am not sure what it is, at least towards my life. March is my birthday month. I would tell you how young I will be turning on the 21st but, hey! Didn't one Orie Rogo Manduli tell you that a real lady doesn't tell her age? So yeah, am gonna leave you guessing. To say the truth, I have mixed feelings about this new year am gonna start. Who am I? Where am I? What am I doing with my life? Am I happy? Content? Have I done everything I dreamed I would by the time I was this age? Am I even halfway? Am I living up to my full potential? I have a lot of questions and only I can answer most of them.
I can bet, am not alone on this; The questions. The questions you ask yourself as you look at everyone else and compare their lives to yours. The questions you ask yourself when people ask you questions about yourself and you don't have an answer for them. These questions, especially when you realise you aint the youngest in the bunch anymore. Do I have a witness? I see your hands, thank you very much, God bless you! The saddest thing, though, is that most of us, can't answer these questions. Not because we don't know the answers or that we can't express them. No, far from that. Well, sometimes, we really don't know the answers but that is sometimes. I think it is mainly because we are scared, afraid. Scared to be honest with ourselves, scared that people will judge us because we are not where they think we should be, we are scared to disappoint.
That begs the question, whom are you living for? Whose approval do you seek in the morning or at the end of that day? Who determines how successful you are and how successful can you get to be considered as the top creme, important?
Here's what I think, and what am teaching ma spirit and self to understand. You are created for a specific purpose, unique and different from everyone else. Have you discovered what it is? God does not make mistakes. Look deep within and speak to your maker. Discover your purpose. Once you have that in check, what you do and at what time will be geared towards fulfilling that purpose. Then, you only answer to God and you. Other people may give you important input and ideas and opinions, but don't let people make the decisions for you. You are you, unique and on a special assignment. You are on a timeline, thats all you need to know.
So stop looking at the rest, they are running their race. Its not about who will finish first, its about who will finish, period!
By the way, did I mention my new love? This love is different, in a way I can't explain, but am sure we are meant to be. It is for better or worse, till MY death do us part. No, its not a man, or a woman for that matter; its a love for elephants. Yes, elephants! They are such wonderful creatures! Anyway, thats a story for another day.
If you have the time, please read these Bible passages; Psalms 139:13-16, Jeremiah 29:11 and 2 Timothy 2:7. Amazing encouragement when you feel you have lost it! Otherwise, have a purpose-filled month and lets exchange notes soonest!
Chao!
PS: As Kenya goes to the ballot on the 4th, just 2 days away, please vote peacefully. If anything this is the time you'll prove your love for Kenya. Maintain love, peace and Unity throughout. Remember, wewe ni MWENYE NCHI, sio MWANANCHI tu! You are accountable!!!
Miss Tee.
